To the Girl from the Girl

for every girl who's ever had big dreams, been misunderstood, and is still in the process of becoming...

"Even in the softest heart, we find our strength..."

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Some people noticed that nowadays I am not active on social media, especially on my Instagram, and that's true.

And I answer that question with a simple answer and give a half-joking but deeply serious answer, "I have a dream that I need to fulfill."

Not because I am too ambitious

But because my purpose in this life

Some people thinking about me as a someone inspiring or perfect in there perspective

But out there, there are people thinking about me as a bad person.

But the truth, I am still figuring out and reflect on every moments in my life

Some days I reflect on my past life

Some days I dream about the future

Some days I remind myself to stay present

and.. some days I asking some questions

And nowadays, I realize that I am the woman who have something to bring about

I know I am, even in the darkest day, I know I am, even when people tell me that I am not that woman, but I remind myself of my worth, that something is out of my control, I just let it be as it should.

I think I am not too much or too little.

It is sometimes about the same frequency, the same perspective, the same connection in our heart.

Actually, those are something that we can't lie about because it's something that we can feel.

As a girl inside, I think I have big dreams and look like a girl who is really ambitious about her life, too smart, or a girl who can be a leader and inspire people through her activities, a girl who will have a hard time finding a partner who can balance with her.

Or sometimes between girl and girl there are unsupportive environments where people will underestimate you, not like you because you have many big dreams, or not like you because you shine too shining .

But I think that statement just only will erode us.

And about future partner, I will share his perspective about my dad said,

"If you have a partner, he has to be on the same level. If the woman is on the ninth level but the man is on the fifth level, it's not balanced. But if you're married, you have to collaborate with your husband."

At that time I was still in high school, so I just kept that advice, but now in my 20s I really understand the whole meaning of those words.

I think at the same level it's just about our education, family background, family economic level, way of living, habits, and having the same frequency to talk about many things and many topics, from the random to the intellectual.

But it turns out, on the same level can also mean that we both know that we still have differences, but we value the uniqueness to make a balance for us, and definitely not being perfect, but we decide to still choose each other, still want to try and deal with that together, respect you, and support you.

Not too big, nor too small. Maybe just feeling at home and still being yourself, but not being yourself as you are, but being yourself with a version that develops yourself and becomes better day by day.

And your partner has to work on that too.

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So to every girl reading this, I think...

If we have a big heart and big dreams, even if we're a leader in some cases. I think we just need to find someone that's mature enough so you don't need to dim your light, lower your standard, or make yourself feel so small.

That someone might be your friend or your spouse in the future.

So, I will say, still have that standard or even raise your bar, but still be humble.

Know your worth, and I think right people will find each other.

One more...

In the right people

your friend,

your partner,

you're never too much or never too little.

They see you not only with their eyes but also with their hearts.

So, keep becoming.

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If these words met your heart today, I hope you remember you're not alone in this journey.

Some girls out there feel the same struggles, in the same silent battles, including me. But it doesn't mean that we're not good enough in this world.

Bloom it anyway, and of course you did in your own way.

your writer,

Hasna Hanifa